OUT OF ORDER — Part Two
I’d definitely like to think I’m more than just a bunch of diagnoses, and maybe I should have told you those things about myself first. However, the name of the blog is “Diagnosis Be Damned” and the name of the post is “Out of Order,” so it should be okay either way.
Okay so I have started and restarted typing the next sentence of this post about a hundred times because it turns out I am super bad at talking about myself in the way that I originally intended to. I never really thought I looked at myself in such a clinical way–my last post–but maybe I do. It’s easier that way for someone who has anxiety maybe? I can’t change the things that happen to me, but the choices I make that make me who I am can be talked about and judged.
Oof. That last bit was a little deep, so I’ll move on to my darlingest friend Jess’s input. She definitely dove deep too, but she started with some light things like how I am: hilarious, sassy AF, a great baker (facts), obsessed with Disney movies, spontaneous, and a boho flower child. On a more serious note, she added things like how I am: as in love with her service dog Fauna as she is, empathic, inquisitive, stubborn as Hell, extremely loyal, and selfless in that I always put others before myself. I feel as though some of those are a bunch of pish posh, but I’ll let it slide because these are her contributions and not mine.
I texted my best friend Makayla and told her to tell me about me, and she responded, “STFU literally telling my therapist about you right now,” which could be terrifying, but I’m okay with it because Makayla is my ride or die, and we’re basically married. I already know all the bad things she has to say about me. She mostly loves me despite them.
Marcus says I am small, opinionated, compassionate, and tempting (insert face palm emoji here). Empathetic and stubborn also came up when talking to him. If those were said by two different people, they must be true?
Other things that I feel it is important to note are that I am extremely family oriented, my friends mean the world to me, I have an incredible Service Dog named Cabbage who takes the best care of me, my happy place is on a little island in the boundary waters between Minnesota and Canada (but only in the summer because I absolutely DO NOT do cold), I’m probably wearing LulaRoe, I have in fact read that, if it’s a Saturday during football season you can find me watching the SEC (I am a Vol for life), my car’s name is Sammi (but I’m not allowed to drive her anymore because seizures), and I am a tiny human–like microscopic.
And that’s me 🙂 Tell me about you in the comments!